Letting go

So even though I decided to start writing last September, there have been no updates for one simple reason--I have a major problem letting go. Of simply opening up, letting loose and not holding back. Something that I really need to do in order to unleash a lot of things in my life. (Reminds me, I need to get back to reading this book that's been sitting on my stack of 'currently reading' books, albeit getting buried on the bottom. The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron is another one on the same topic I want to read.) There are a bunch of things I want to do and I need to let go of this fear I have of messing up and of demanding perfection of myself, as well as critique from others and just do it! I've always been a very private, closed and introverted person which doesn't help either. This actually makes the internet an even harder place to begin as it puts my thoughts along with their imperfections and mess-ups on open display, but perhaps that's exactly what I need, to fear none but God and open up to all the potential. Bismillah...